We're doing things differently this month. No meds. No ultrasounds. No appointments. And while I'm enjoying the lowered stress level not having these appointments brings, it still makes my heart a little anxious even writing those words - but I know it's where the Lord is leading us. Don't get me wrong, I have absolutely nothing against medicine. I'm a registered nurse. I know it works...which makes not having it harder I think. Mine is an issue of faith.
I'm sure the irony of today's church service was lost on most of the congregation, but a lengthy (to me) baby dedication followed by a message on not worrying was impossible to miss. I know I needed the reminder, but the surrounding situation was not fun.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life ? “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:25-34 NIV)
These verses were of course a big part of today's message. Reading over them at first makes me think whether we ever have a baby or not is a much bigger deal than what clothes I'm going to wear, but if I stopped there I'd be missing the point. Aren't I more valuable to God than a bird or flowers? Yes, I am. He is aware and concerned with my wants and needs. Thanks to a dear friend's prayers today, I was reminded that Josh and I were given a promise. We will not give up on that promise. The friends that have joined with us in prayer will not give up. And for that we are truly grateful.
