Getting to know you...

Hi! I thought if you were going to read this blog, you might want to know a little about me.  My name is Megan.  My husband, Josh, and I both grew up in little Arkansas towns just a few miles from one another.  We met at the local gas station I worked at when I had just turned 17, and he was 18.  I like to say we were babies.  And being the babies we were, we thought we were ready to get married a year and eight months later.  It's only by the grace of God that we have made it this far.  So here we are 10+ years later, a little older and hopefully a little wiser.  

I wanted to start a blog to talk about our journey through infertility.  We have been praying for a baby for almost three years now.  I know that may not seem like long to some, but to me it feels like an eternity.  I hope this helps other couples, but being a little selfish here, I thought it might be cathartic for me too.  I am the type of person who holds it all in.  I don't talk much.  (My husband makes up for that.)  My body usually ends up taking the brunt of my stress - i.e. shingles, teeth gritting, muscle clinching, etc.  Hopefully this will help ease that.  

I came up with the name of this blog kind of as a proclamation of what I want to be.  I want my heart to be content in whatever God has for us.  Whether that means finding out I'm pregnant next week, next year, or never.  I want to be ok with God's plan for us.  Last night, a friend at our life group brought to my attention a verse in Phillipians that I had heard a million times growing up in a wonderful Christian home.  "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."  Phillipians 4:13.  What I hadn't read, or paid attention to in the past, were the two verses before that.  "I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.  I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty.  I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want."  (Phil 4:11-12).   And then after that comes, "I can do this through Him who gives me strength."  I had never read it in the context in which it was intended.  How amazing would it be to say those words, and actually feel them as well?  I, obviously, am not there yet...but I want to be.  That's the most I can say about it at this point.  I simply hope to be to that place in the semi-near future.  

I will be filling you all in on what we have actually gone through on this journey in posts to come.  I do hope that someone out there in Blog Land will be encouraged reading this.  The best part is knowing you're not alone.